The Great Truth

I was fortunate enough to be invited to Monroe prison for their yearly prison sangha celebration called Buddhafest.
As I sat and interacted with the inmates while watching their loud and fun antics, I was filled with great joy. The joy I felt was brought on by the fact that this was the great truth about the Dharma in action, right there in front of me. Prisons, no prisons, walls, no walls – we are all somehow trapped in this samsara. If these men can find freedom from suffering, even behind bars, and under watch of guards, then we all can find freedom from suffering right here and now, wherever we are. This is the great truth of the Dharma. We can be free from suffering no matter what.

The Buddha taught only two things: the origins of suffering, and the cessation from suffering. We don’t have to be a prisoner to our emotions. We don’t have to flitter in the wind with every mood. This is true freedom.

The path is there, well laid out for us. The eightfold path is the path to true liberation from samsara – with or without enlightenment. Simply trying to follow the path will ease suffering in our life. We are all so lucky to have not only achieved precious human birth, but to also to have had great contact with the Dharma.

It is moments like this that propel me forward on the path. I know the Dharma works. I know it can end suffering in my life. All I have to do is the work.

Six Days on the Inside

On the last day of retreat with Noah Levine, he had the practitioners write something about our experience. This is what I wrote.

Day 1: Man, trees are really fucking tall!
Day 2: In this moment, it’s like this.
Day 3: Wait! It took seven years of sobriety, three years of daily meditation practice, two years of therapy, and three days of intensive meditation to figure that out? Really?!!
Day 4: Am I having a heart attack?
Day 5: My body knows what to do, I should trust it.
Day 6: It will never cease to amaze me how you can come to love and appreciate twenty five people – most of whom you have never met – in the span of six days without saying a single word to them.

To Love Ones Self

I never truly knew how I felt about myself until I spent six days in silence with complete strangers. It’s the faces you see. They become mirrors of your own ill will towards yourself. You tend to project your inner self hatred onto them. Next thing you know the story in your mind is so fantastic it even comes complete with a lynch mob.

Of course I have no real basis of comparison. For all I know it may be the same if you truly love yourself. I don’t know? I would like to think it is a series of warm loving feelings over and over. Every time someone passes you, another feeling of warm loving kindness. Who knows?

What I do know is, that is what I would like others to experience when they pass me.

Sangha

Buddha, Dharma , Sangha The three jewels  and man are they the three jewels for a reason. I say this because I am often reminded of this fact. Take Sangha I started out in the Theravada school of Buddhism. It is what first made since to me. I liked this idea of shutting up sitting down and meditating to uncover and clear away the delusion from my heart.  I liked the fact at least from my limited view at the time that there was not a lot of ritual in it. There was a lot of emphasis on quiet meditation and the four noble truths and the eight fold path. I had a few friends that where of the Vajrayana school. I often would go to The Sakya monastery in Seattle to meditate and do Chenrezi practice. Never really committing to being one school of Buddhism or another, To me Dharma is Dharma it all came from one source there are just many different roads to the same ends. Or so I thought time went on and I kept up with the Sakya I really enjoyed the chanting, the mantra, and the visuals to me it seemed to prepare my mind somehow make it more fertile in a way for the teachings and for my meditation.

I took refuge there with H.H. Jigdal Dagchen Sakya and continued my weekly practice of Chenrezi sometimes I would show up for a Puja,  Still not putting myself all in and not really identifying with that Sangha. It was odd because if you had come to my house during that time and looked at my practice space it looked like a Tibetan monastery with thangkas brocade and bowls everywhere.

My practice at home stayed pretty steady mindfulness meditation. Then I heard about ngondro the preliminary practices of this tradition. Something about this idea resonated deeply in me. The night after I had heard about ngondro I had a dream about someone reading me the Bardo Thodol. I remember waking up with a feeling of no time to lose. I knew I had this perfect boat to help me and other beings out of the sea of Samsara and I felt as if I was wasting it.

I told my friend about all this and she got me the book on the practices of ngondro from the sakya and went over how to do them. I started them as they can take years to complete. Over the next two years I did my practices on and off with no real resolve. It was not until I made a resolve to finish my practices in a very timly manner that I started daily practices of ngondro.

Now the more practices I did habitually the more I started to see the reasoning behind them and the more the path of Vajrayana started to unfold and make since to me. The more effort I put in the more Dharma bloomed in my mind. My view was adjusting and I knew this was my Sangha this was my school. I went to a Talk by  H.E. Garchen Rinpoche a man who upon sight made me realize the truth behind Guru devotion a practice which up until that point I had an aversion to, due to my incorrect view. However merely upon seeing this great man I was put in an environment that had the correct causes and conditions for that view to be corrected.  He said that it is our Karma that brings us to our practice not the other way around. That is my past lives the actions and practice in them is what has shaped my mind to be the vessel for the dharma I am to carry in this lifetime. Upon hearing that I knew it was truth. There was no need to explain no examples needed I just knew it was truth when I heard it.

So even though it’s all one dharma I found at least for me some roads are better to walk then others. Some ways of teaching and preparing my mind move me more than others. This does not mean one school or tradition is better worse or indifferent than any other it just means that my cup seems to hold this one better than others.

I have been given a great opportunity I have achieved precious human birth I have encountered the dharma I have access to not just one great teacher but three and I have a Sakya linage monastery not more than 20 minutes away from me. I am very grateful that I get to practice this profound path for the benefit of all beings.